"ripped Her soul from Her body"

They would never
understand Her,
with ways labelled odd,
off-kilter, atypical
They thought of Her dark
for they could not truly see
Her Golden Realness
brilliant and bright, She
shines Like a halo
Blinding like wild fire
burning all the oxygen
up in any room
She enters
She was always
a strange girl
but only by misperception
closed eyes to an
obvious Vision
I think they jus
can't see the painting
on the wall
Or feel the bloodrush
when She smiles
They want to turn Her down
til She's detuned, disjointed
because they are
scared by Her ways of
not fitting the cookie cutter,
against the accepted norm
They are undeserving
But I say be true
be you, sad or happy
remember you are real
and your point of view
is valuable, valid
you are worthy
Of love and good
And of being
who you are
And always hold on
to your pulsing emanating light
grow and go
set the world
Ablaze

we will become cigarettes

I could never quite get
my head out of you
Wrapped up in chains
while puncturing veins
hoping surgical steel
don't poke thru
Shut down the the vision I'm given
Of a person out of view
who vaguely seems to
resemble you
Is it you? It's you
it's all for you
cries and lies and my demise-
these things that still hold true
Seems like we're shaded red
all the choices and chances
that we blew
And now I feel my deal
only seems to entail I failed
as someone you once knew
And it's time to move on
the morning sun's bringing dawn
on me as I question wat to do
Since emptiness is worthless,
I suppress the nervousness
in which route should I persue?
All in all, it was one big fall
and like the turn of-
I get screwed

We will become cigarettes, smoldering away
until we remain only colored gray
Waiting, we're burning for the day
we can finally meet the ashtray

GumbyHole

I am lost
in claymation
like times so long
ago forgotten
I am as real as
plastic and
I deserve to feel
this rotten
feverish cotton
Forgetten myself
my selfish centered ways
I ride the rush
waves for ways
road it paves
to Hell with good intentions
blockheads forgotten
And I should mention
that I'm the last standing
trying to fight me
all the others jus left
and said let it be
But I'd rather bleed for
my sin
cuz baby it's you
who will never win

poison IV

Summer is here
but Winter's
feeling hasn't quite
left yet
Go outside
a walk in the woods
for breathing room
My lungs need
Leaves of Grass
I burn, I burn
can't wait my turn
fast cuz I'm
afraid I may
regress
No new punctures
for a couple months
Maybe I can
jus this once
plunked on the dirt
sneaking blood drips
crimson on the Flora
I sink
but no bathroom floor
to grab me
betray myself again
so much barely
I blink
into existence
trees surrounding me
plant life
I wipe
my arm off
and finally breathe
None of the pain
of being now
I can get free
out of the black-
hike my chosen path
for these precious minutes
I think I'm
truly alive
clock ticks crawl
I am an insect
Forever sick
of it All

Water Soluble

My light is faded
inside but
I wanna shine
My self loathing
and hatred
are best friends of mine
We go everywhere together
talk about the weather
this black rain cloud
to which I am tethered
Johnnies do it better
100 proof peppermint
my cortex will sever
such is my inTent
City not so pretty
walking tho
my spine is bent
my skin is dripping, fading,
decay, huffing solvent
Wrote a letter: Dear parent
I tried to survive,
insides- they jus died
Sorry for your lament
Windex clear,
tell em all he didn't care
when he went
Burn the body
so no zombie
Jus Soma, and a lot of sweat
No regret for this death
I am jus a Crystal Mess
who, let's be honest,
barely made a dent

For Cid, when she sad

Your shards are
long gone
but I'll always hold you
Together
promises promises
Well mine are kept
and my love for
you is thus far
boundless
So no
matter how crazy it
may all seem
jus remember this
One Little Thing:
I got your back,
in your corner,
on your side
always and all ways
which is only something
I say when the love
is true

3 day from now, 3 years ago

3 days from now, 3 years ago
is when I'm gonna lose you
And I feel powerless and stupid
cuz there is nothing that I can do
hindsight 20/20
My vision so clear
how nothing good came of life
when I let go of wat I hold dear
Maybe we were not the best
fuck I know I ain't
but I'll regret so much
I gave up without trying shit
I was too mad at being content
and now I'm cold, alone
and full of resent
Not that I think
anything could be done
we gave it a shot
and we lost
At least one of us won
I will be sad forever
missing my best friend
but if I had to do it
I'd do it the same again
Cuz I'm Mr never Right
And you've got a damn good life
my problems caused the trite
turned to this spite
and you being happy is a better sight
You will always hold a place
special in my chest
and in no matter how pieces I rest
I always want for you the best
A simple story turned
like a knife twist
But I guess my dear this is wat
love really is