Wednesday, November 19, 2014

2 Xanax and a Bulliet

I fear
you have no faith
in me, or my abilities
and here I am
thinking you could move
the stars
you're kinetic
and cosmic
your aura is all over,
this energy
you emminate
I see life in your eyes
you see plague in mine
but
I understand
after all,
we both have
an abyss inside
a hole in ourselves
that pulls the good down
sucks the fun out
but your darkness
looks bright next to mine
maybe cuz I champion you
my belief is strong
maybe I jus see wat I want to
when you tell me
you're worthless
I almost laugh
at the notion
cherish the thought
of you not being wat I think
you're the closest to perfect
I ever wanna kno
when I think of
the world,
I see you
tell me your problems
your faults, your flaws
so you can become more human
and I can feel less
fuct up
I need the energy
and your light is electric
you are something I
can't define
so I no longer try
you may not
always need me
and I'm ok with that
the world will need you
one day,
they'll remember your name
they'll talk of
your face, your smile
and I'll be a memory...
if I'm lucky enough
when your gravity draws
them in and they
all know
you'll remember wat I said
how I feel
and that I was right
maybe you'll thank me
but that's not necessary
I'll always be
someone
cuz I knew you
I'll always matter
cuz you do
and I'll always need you
even if you're jus
a placebo


Sunday, November 9, 2014

U.G.Kids

I've got a fire
inside
gets a lil dimmer
with every time I've died
giving up this ghost
at least I tried
committing deicide
in my mind
I hope conspire
earth's new crisis
is getting dire
a brand new fire
with germs that get me higher
is my desire
hear me-
I'm going mental
quite clearly
need a placebo to steer me
in a new direction
the suicide's filed-
open with discretion
the youth of today
say they need
protection
we cut our flag,
Black
into a 4 section
now I hear
Texas is the reason
that get up kids
got up, leaving
stop believing
start an all out war
no cause for alarm
jus shark punch the floor
I don't front, jus agnostic
narcotics converge
til they're toxic
I fly my integrity
unsteadily
maybe it's a cro-mag,
maybe it's not me
it's your indecision
disorderly vision
in my eyes
their precision
jus adds up to a bad religion
but the threat is
minor, can I say?


Needle, work the way

can't catch my equillibrium
another detox stay
equal Librium
don't be a bitch, nurse
give me 'em
so I can go back to bed
and oblivion
I'll be spiked out
jammed like traffic
gone baby gone
no Ben Affleck
cuz when I say dope
I ain't talking about fly
when I say you're sexy,
I mean when you cry
fuct up huh?
I'm a fuct up guy
I don't want the world
don't even wanna try
I'm the white rabbit
with a bad habit
and you kno I'll steal it
if I can grab it
Pixie-like
where is my mind?
all I seem to find is
wat I've left behind
Anne Frankly
I'm sick of hiding
running, riding
they were lying
I've been to the top-
there is no Zion


"hi Joker"

that smile
that smile burns
burns into your mind
red as a blood moon
don't laugh at me,
laugh with me
a laughing spree:
home invasion,
homicide,
robbery
will they get the joke?
as I pour the gasoline
will they find it funny?
as I light the match
will they laugh?
as I commit this arson
paint my face
cuz you're too serious
jus give me a chuckle
we are the men who jus
want to watch the world burn


Lil Skeleton Baby

she comes like
autumn leaves
fall down
follow her around
cuz you love her skin
and wanna see it lack
you jus love her skin
and want it for a mask
too scared to ask,
you plan to take
follow her home
she won't run
eyes without a face,
a smile to kill for
it could be your's
porcelain, white and smooth
it'll be even again
once I stitch it
stay with me forever
I promise
I won't wear you out


Rx-icon Devil

with a battered brain
off track marks, runaway
TrainWreck
pop skull, I am after all
on Adderall
my pheno-Barbie doll
kill my pain, dearest Dilaudid
my aim is true
warm my heart,
use my vein to start
Lean back, nod out
pass out, black out
Valium nights
lead to Darby Crashing
burn, smoke, puff
did I take enough?
is it ever gunna be enough?
is it ever gunna be enough?
is it ever gunna be enough?
prolly not
so I pop more stuff


Pack that grAss Up

burn, burn
you're gunna burn
burn, burn
you're gunna burn
with me
Inhale
let's burn down the house
talk in our heads
set fire to the rain
and the earth
that which comes from dirt
shall be returned
in new form
a quick vapor
Exhale
the grass is dry
as is my mouth

I scannHer darkly

sound and vision
rely on the external
hard drive it home
take her hand
and trampoline
set phases to done
set the temperature on
Delete
turn cameras on
take her in
scan her long
read the vital signs
look for clues in the eyes
this world we live in,
full of little spies
addicts you despise
live all around our lives
take her back
take it down
she seems clean
she smells it too
surge of emotions
tho I'm hiding in my
scrambler suit
like a positive charge
it's not a side effect of the Substance D
I'm thinking it must be love


always wet, hardly clean

TrashDump, I am
my body is a temple
where we worship
Intoxication
every day we try to D.I.E.
(do it excessively)
philosophy is the talk
on the blunt box
speed balls but crack rocks
jus one fix
jus a taste
watever it takes
smoking some weed
while the ketamine bakes
it's the way we're raised
summer's spent swimming
in amphetamine waves
pills to sleep, thrills await
we are awake
don't go my way
if you don't like
that's fine
but don't tell me how to live
my life
you don't hafta be gone,
but I'm gunna stay high
all the time
it's my choice
my voice
I shall use
to say simly to you
"this is how we do"

AK4:20

Kill Them All
kill them all
the anti-herb infidels
who deny the medicine
this is a call for violence
we tried common sense
and got a zero return
All Cops Are Bastards
and the stoners have had it
now we shall rise
up like a gravity bong,
Fight the power,
have a snack
Smash the State,
take a nap
once upon a time
it was okay to play
with your mind
they jus let us be
the weed was free,
figuratively
so by any means
we're taking it back
Rat-atat-tat
smoking joints fat
Rat-atat-tat
Rat-atat-tat
we're getting that

Dip-Set-Smoke

preservation is key
it unlocks Death's door
we must preserve til death
and in Death, persevere
they want to kno
why I smoke cigarettes
burn with formaldehyde
well let me show
the reason for ignorance
once youve tried
Dip shit, dip Shit, Dip Shit
DIPSHIT
my ead gets twisted
and I'm in love
smoke in the air, on the water
I'm wet
see wat I see
hear how I hear
a figure's there
out the corner of my eyes
Waiting, Watching, Wanting
I kno they'll take me when it's time
to make preserves
when I die
may I get wat I deserves
and yes it was
all worth it
cuz I am wat I am,
it is wat it is
look at the clock
it's time to dip shit

Low like Bowie

this same car
always crashing, my ignition
stalled, paint all scratching
I'm clawing at the walls
grinding my teeth
wat in the world was I thinking?
mix of coke, pills, X, drinking
I'm crashing but I can't wave
wat I need is sleep
glorious, so deep,
the speed of life is murder
we are all tortured souls
finding solace in empty botles
and thick lines of
Thin White Duke
we may even be fakes,
replicas, self
created tin machines
subteraneans breaking glass
wat in the world
were we all thinking
last night and the night before?
it ain't easy
so we get high as
a star, man
never wanna come down
from our space oddessy
oddity, jus a bunch of Major Toms
floating tru the vaccum of life,
high on LadyStardust
we call this a 'modern love'
we are diamonds
dogs wild
we are young Americans
living the the golden promise
in these Golden years
which we spent wasted,
in which were wasted
absolute beginners, ameteurs
living lives divided-
I feel like the Berlin Wall
fix my hair and make-up
I feel Low like Bowie

Regan MacNeil

blood drips
from my wrist
I feel sick
projectile for awhile
like the Exorcist
no resist
the siren song of
the opiates
"come to us" they say
"come outside, come play"
I'm powerless
I jus want this
I just want to understand,
and I wanna feel good
Ive been low
low low low
I'm raring to go
bought a ticket to the show
so now I can relax,
go slow
made the connection
got the confection
so I run reverse, opposite
direction
now I understand Perfection
I am a reincarnated Dali Lama
I'm christ's Resurrection
at the intersection
of Strength and Hope
I perform
dissection
with Stress and Dope
tie me down,
as I tie off
Becoming Savage,
the ocean is long
Im lost and ravaged
stranded by myself
no man is an island
I'd like to put in effort
but that requires trying
instead I'll bare my cross
with spoon/needle
I feel the demon
coming on, I
feel its evil
and I...
I... I,
I embrace it