Crystal lake clear

Trying so hard to heal

and if I mention how

I really feel

would you invest time

to find if I'm really real?

Situationally it's

not ideal

with this demon

all the dark parts

in my heart screaming

so sick and tired

of uninspired fiending

expired pushes me enough

to be tough but

I'm still leaning

towards the voice

that says make a choice

of uncleaning

all the bad is glad

to be scheming

so I told myself

"shut up

or I'm leaving"

I need a reason

to wanna keep breathing

my mental health

is dreaming

of being better

than it's seeming

but I wanna be seen

as gleaming

like a diamond shining

or water streaming

Crystal lake clear

if I finally care

enough to be

a being