holidazed and Confused

green burns
and it's brighter than Xmas
better than a Bday
fucked up like
a New Year
explodes in you
like July 4th
midnight on Halloween
and you eat
like Thanksgiving
Easter candy
is no match
for unMemorial Day

a 4/20 Valentine

generation joint

6 a.m. Saturday
I stepping into crisp morning
april but not yey 20
my head full of tranqs
lungs full of THC
my stomach dissolving
my last sip of beer
I go to find Ms Green
at watever trippy scene
if she's therethen
the others are frustrated
Bored in the USA
I jus want to wander
barefoot in the woods
despite the chill,
the idea feels cool
instead I return to the
oppression of indoors
my spirit stays high
but caged
and i take more medicine
and remember who it is
I truly love

(fruit-flavored weed + four .5 pink K-punch)= Fruit Punch

you can kiss my mouth
I'll down my beer
using it to swallow
K marked pills
taken by K-Mart people
we lean in
like the dirtiest of South
but we both kno this
is all downhill
and about falling
it's reflected in our eyes
we made it out
but the otherside
was only worse
jus a tattered American flag
and burnt out fireworks
you and I attempt to keep a dead
celebration alive and kicking
but we are not AMPlified
we went so many miles
now maybe we should sleep
entwine in narcotic slumber,
wait out the dull early a.m.
fuck the dawn
it kills the mood
she rolls me a smoke
tho she doesn't want
extinguish my cigarette
in our ashtray monument
we walk empty,
decacent streets
riff raff and trash and us
I overt my eyes
pull you closer
safety/teamwork
I swallow another K dot

(Dr. I might be certifiable
but I'd surely die, alone from her)

and tell her she's my only one
She smiles,
replying that I have the
Darkest Eyes           
door reached, stairs ascended
light on, blinding after bar neon
she drains her last vodka nip
then went to pee
(for the 11th time)
I changed and went to
our room, where I
put 'Aladin Sane' on
sit on the bed, eyes fuzzed
I light the paper
breathe, jus breathe
a botanical taste fills
my mouth
light cough repeat
astral projections
and feelings of
connects and neurons
she comes in to room
her warpaint applied
I exhale, she
socks it to me
my heart swells,
my brain swirls
then we embrace
side to side
and we kiss
her cherry lips graze
my strawberry ones
and
in that moment
time stops fully
and we never unfreeze
we stay this way
til we wake
bake in early heat
the sun was high
so was I,
her also
and it's all I ever dreamed of...
even in my sleepless nights

night, Stalker

Darling,
sleep the sleep
of infants
serenity will find you
all you imagine
you dream
a rich tapestry
of sublime
unconscious desires
this fuels your waking life
helps you thrive
I see it make you stronger
so I must take it
I want the light
in your wide open eyes
I want the gift of rest,
to know a world of dreaming
to live on that side,
however fleeting,
is worth this cost
this violation
sometimes innocence is lost
sometimes it dies
but all that matters
is my base primal desires,
an almost animal need
the hunt turns feeding time
and it will equal sleep
slumber is my reward
for my time, my effort,
my love
pure red-blooded emotion
we only hurt
the ones we love
and Darling,
I love you the most
you're so well-rested and pretty
you look good in blue
red drips over your white skin
it's my American Dream
we shall be together forever,
entwined and connected
my sleep shows your dreams
we shall breathe and live
the same
we are one when
your soul has been consumed
like a midnight snack
I'm so very hungry
and so very tired
go to sleep Darling
and let me rest

I am WAR

this is heartbreak warfare, and I have no fear
tho I kno I cant win when you're near
but I no longer care if you're here
I'd much rather clear the air, my dear
and watch you turn deep blue
choking on it like you can't chew
my hands over your face like 'achoo'
this is the only thing that's true
between me and you
now that it's thru, for a fact
I gotta put some tact in my plan of attack
cuz there's no going back
even if you wave me in
the sin of your skin isn't worth the chagrin,
the bruising, and all of myself  I'm losing
now I'm carefully choosing my final solution
a plan of action with a planned reaction
to put your heart in traction
your soul is only a fraction
and I question the whole attraction
I mean the way you played me,
you must really hate me
and I jus thought I was going crazy
Oh well, baby
that's jus how dark
these days can be

See you again, this side or the Other

hey now hey now now
sing This Corrosion to me...

then tell me you'd die without me
and I'll die in front of you
Your voice is the gun, song was a bullet
deep is the wound in you
but im inside it
forever, you and me
til the world burns
or we are jus
lost and mechanical
animals alone
with our wilderness taken
away from our paws
Knowing you has dulled
my instincts
and yet I'm evolved
and evolving still
I'm also dying
slowly, sweetly
I lie bleed out
on the red carpet
it mixes well
like we do
accepted mortality
I know who killed me
cuz I let her
I loved it
I craved it
and I let it do away
with me
but only my body
physical form
But I live on
I exist in your darkest hours
and in your sunniest moments
I exists in your pain and faults
I exist in your mind's eye
and your heart's memory
in everything around you
we were matched and touched
our 2 tattered black souls
I am too connected
I cannot jus slip away
or fade away
we are always now
even if I never see you again
I'm with you
I am you
I'm your tears, your strengths
I'm your's
I know I'm leaving
but I'm not gone
remember the good
embrace the bad
let me stay with you
invite me in
and I'll watch over
I'll take care
forever loved
so I'm ok with
my morality
and end of living in this world
soon I'll be a particle
occupying the space around you
I am the sparkle
in your eyes
I'm your bad decisions that turn good
I'm your past, present, and future
when you are lost
so am I
But we'd be even more lost
without each other

ShootingStar

there is no final hour
when you Die Fun
you were here,
then you're not
no goodbyes
you don't hafta live fast
even Dr. Thompson got old
but he lived hard
I want to walk'with the King
to share the sun
and know the clouds
make it all happen
get real
Heaven is a silly belief
heaven is the right combination
Hell is even dumber
hell is this life
this life is pain
pain must be killed
we learn that from an early age
Mom kissing your cuts
was the pill of youth
well, you're no longer young
and you're not as much fun
it's ok to miss it
it's ok to feel left behind
Football Season isn't over
but you fear being benched
"I can't go on, I'll go on"
so you play hard
hit the ground, making tracks
and you leave it all out there
blood sweat tears on the floor
the crowds, the lights
they are pushing you
it stirs something in you
and you go the distance
Then in your finest moment,
your MVP season,
they all see you, see wat you did
you are Golden
Forever
and it kills you...
snap of the fingers, jus like that
you meet your maker,
which is nothing
your number retired
jersey in the rafters

Epitaph reads: Died Fun
and they all know,
they all...