Sunday, November 10, 2019

Consummate~Consecrate


Under an ice blue moon
with no shadow cast
We walk backwards
slow steady secure
towards a hole in the earth
we summoned but
never predicted
Speaking in tongues
of long dead language
and long lost lovers
their graves already dug
not yet filled
and will not be
til we add our sweetest 
of bloods
the one that pumps
so deep red it's
almost blackened
Only thru acts of
the greatest sacrifice-
that of our wants and needs
the sum total of ourselves
Can we ensure compliance
the hole made whole
as truth runs thru arteries
down a razor kissed wrist?
and out of our selfish bodies
into a passion pit teeming
with ghosts of a 
former existence
it's the way things must be
expectations equal letdown
so we perform rituals
that represent the pure desperation of desire
It hurts to love
more than any break or wound
we could possibly endure
but this slicing ensures
our devotion is known
We bleed for the ones
who dont want to stitch us
We die for them
when they can not
live for us
calling upon forces
pleading with magic
emptying our circulation
to fill up our hearts
with one last lost phrase
uttered in unison
cherished items tossed
in bonfire
we call upon the Old Ones
to spark this magic
extoll our slighted
and return to the soil
the love of our lives


Thursday, October 3, 2019

Vania Friends

Babydoll loves the
taste of thc and
the feel of fetynal
lately I've been too up
riding that crazy train
1st stop all the way
to the end
remaining on the rails
has proved a test
I can't share my heart
nor head with
someone being like this
so babydoll suffers from
my selfish mode
of living
tho I dunno if you can
truly call if that
it's more like barely existing
very poorly coping
staying awake to forget
staying away to recall
any last vestige
of actually relating to
others in this so
called society
daunting task since
now I'm one of
the McDonald's people,
aimless sitting and ordering 
$1 items to continue 
sitting aimless
talk to none by choice
hours spent alone
with having no true home
I'm jus like wherever I may roam
following the feeling reeling
inside my bones but
my answer is no closer
and I've grown tired
so tired
of wandering the same 6 miles
killing all my time 
in anxiety wasteland
and boring myself
to living dead

the fun house massacre


The dirtiest shape I
ever saw my hands in
was the time when I
pulled them from your sternum
Intestines dripping,
my love is lifting
feel of your last breath
As those lungs cease existing
I could almost cry
at this gorgeous sight
white cells and plasma
pooling your head
in miasma
halo of splatter making
the sacrifice matter
less obvious but harder
than head on a platter
life's little martyr
enticingly sadder
I know it's time to
begin clean up but
I feel stuck in the beauty
of how your pretty dying
makes you my executie
All damn day seems
I could watch your
blood streams and recall
all the screams. Sounds
of undone serene home
invasion scenes
and for tonight at least
you have been my queen
a quench for a deep thirst
satiated by skin bursts
as my precious implement
did its very worst
thank you again
participant even if unwilling
you have not died in vain
you died by random killing
Cuz even tho now we
are closer than family
jus an hour ago
you didn't even exist to me


Barber Crampton / head West

Cut off the head
and the body will writhe
after death skill I
learned in my life
decapitated placement
between such living thighs
and a shinier blue bestow
her eyes
a needful of serum
to the cerebellum is
jus a tasty touch
a party favor merely
toxins alone is
never enough
I gave life to
the clinical dead
earning my wings
on the sights of
my head
Betrothed to the science
and less the emotion
a snapped spine is fine
if you keep it in motion
laying supine upon
the table an examination
will demand sensation
only if capable...

💀💉🔓

...to truly figure out
a synthesized god-like ability
you hafta expect bumps
hiccups and hang-ups
and no one wants to give
any time up, tied up
is jus part of the scientific
method we are forced
to employ
My work is so close
to desired result a.k.a
Perfection
all the failures
and unintended side effects
worth it... if I can work
undisturbed, I can work wonders
neon green glowing immortality
instead I'm the bad guy
for coming off singular,
methodical, and
obsessionally psychotic
for having a purpose, nay,
destiny to fulfill
and events may transpire
people might react poorly
my research ongoing
pieces of tissue crawling
violent impulsive attacks
can all be handled as needed
but we are so close
we will be heroes
jus for one day-
Will you please shut up and
help me kill this
reanimated corpse
and bury it out back
I have too much work to do
... and I can't be disturbed

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Dead Wait


We drag the corpses
they attached us to
bloated with grease
thru broken streets
and boiling seas
Waiting for the calendar
to catch up to us
so they may pronounce
an official cause and time
of death, despite
the fact that we
were long since deceased
birth is an ending
to former lives
dying is not optional,
dying young is
We could save ourselves
so much ache and pain
we could cleanse the
palate of this distaste
the flavor of failing
haunts every bite I take
I am never full due
to my inability to finish
a full meal
choking would be preferable
to swallowing poisonous
rupturing rapture
then maybe my clock
could tock the glorious
moment where demise prevails
and finally
finally I can stop dragging
bones and dead weight
burdened no longer now that
timeline is voided and
I happily shake hands with 
the Grim Reaper

Tuesday, July 2, 2019

It' Alive... It... It Follows

I float like
a ghost
parasite with no host
self disposed
death imposed
riddled with thoughts
keeping my mind
closed
all the "I knows"
got me "this blows"
cuz I made me bad
when I chose
overflows of disgust
chronicles of ridiculous
a damned dam
about to bust
water seeping turns to rust
Caution walking-
ground is dangerous
it was explained
to us
Love is chemical
now I Lust
made a negative
out of plus
like it was jus
a lil buzz
so why so serious?

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

CHRONICles of a RELAPSEr

Simple math:
money plus opportunity
times misery
equals bad decisions
I made my choice,
I live with it
I made my bed,
I lie in it
at least it's not
concrete and newspaper
or even worse,
the shelter
Gimme one more medicated
peaceful moment
and I swear I
won't use
it to fuck up my life
only a weeknd
and maybe a Wednesday
I love Her and
it hurts so bad
How can I live without...
wait, my mistake- rearrange
Who can I live without?
jus myself, only me
I'm fine being gone
most of the time
is running out, low
so every now and then
I check into the Overlook Hotel
there it's Shining
and I still have a reservation
blood flow like an elevator
reaching the top floor
praise the most high
I wanna be cleansed like
96 percent of the time
but I'm holding my will back
like I died and I
hate my family
Somethings I jus can't do
or even conceive of
Spiritual not Religious
is a bullshit cop-out
and I'll never truly
fit the mold
my Higher Power lives below
and I'm happy to
sell my soul
for a methamphetamine rush
Trash my hotel room
then realize the maid
is off today
I gotta clean up
Myself